2008-12-18
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White Breath]--(
T.M. Revolution))
Oh ma lourde, the year's almost over and I haven't even settled all my coursework. ARGH! This monstrous horde of written assignments require compartments of the brain that I don't even have!
What's making me feel even worse is that this is supposed to my 2 months of sabbath. It's very very very easy to just say "I'm gnna do this" but it's a whole different level when you think about why the heck doing things for material benefit is worth anything. Having to live life with as an altruist from day one on the other hand would probably render you useless the minute you have anything to say.
So now, let us think once more.
Why am I having so much difficulty focusing.
Why is it when I have this bloody paper on philosophy in front of me, I think of things that totally waste my time if you place it in the context of life and living in this day and age?
Why has the pursuit of knowledge been rendered insignificant and unworthy, as opposed to the pursuit of wealth and status?
Then again, this is not my real world.
Where I live I'm supposed to be a lord of music, but authority sees fit that I am cursed to lose my ears. It is not out of choice that I am forced to explore what I have no talent at, but out of necessity and ill fate that I will continue on this absolutely depressing journey of worthlessness until I finally writhe and die.
I abhore the state of society. Many people whom have great potential have become deaf to the multitude of thoughts that drift so closely outside of the cavern of their minds. It's saddening to hear what some people have to say, a pentacostal tribute to the unused lump of coal in their heads. Just makes you sit there and accept the fact that you're all alone in this dreaded fight for the truth, where in reality an almost-saviour would definitely be a fatalist due to fanatical (& blind) faith.
God help us all.
0630 ★ 040-(.
music.
ology)-
@ 16:40
